Goodbye My Little First Born Shih Tzu

Oh what a pain to experience loss and goodbyes.
Even for a little puppy.
It's been two days since she was sold and I am so attached to her.
I can't help but feel sad and until now I can't stop from crying.
I look like a fool crying over a puppy.
Well the last time I cried was when the other puppy has eye infection.
That was last Thursday, a week ago.
I also cried silently when I gave this little puppy away.
Now, I thought of getting her back and keeping them all to myself.
But I am pregnant and will be having a baby soon.
Of course, I can't take it back.
I have to deal with the pain.
huhuhuhuhuhu...