Im a Bum

Life is so much better now, I can spend a lot of time with my husband, do the things I wanted to do, I am really spoiling the inner child in me. My friend, said that I am a very lucky person, I don't want to believe her, but after some thoughts I really am lucky.

Things that made me happy:

1. Morning hugs
2. Sunday morning taho
3. Sunday morning mass
4. Singing Lessons at CFPM, with kids who is better than me
5. Bathtub soaks
6. Eating bbq
7. Hot choco at Chowking, so creamy
8. Selecta Moo choco drink
9. Videoke to the max, at our house in Ugong
10. Last but not the least, looking forward to my last pay at SVI

Blessed Ako

Ang aga aga nag sesenti ako. It's just that I feel so blessed, why did I ever never thought about it before? Here I am happily married to a wonderful guy, the best guy for me. Just his love is enough to make me realize that I am a very lucky girl to have him. Mega reklamo pa ako sa trabaho, and he was ther for me, always never intruding, always there to listen and to support me.

Once in a while, you have to pause and think of the things that are important to you. I retired from my work, and I have a lot of time to spend, spend it with him, his family, my family. I feel so happy. Kahit wala akong trabaho. Hindi ko naisip na kailangan ko ng pera, yeah right, I am earning a lot compared to my officemates and my position was full of responsibilities and I choose to say goodbye to it.

Ngayon lang, na na relax na ako at narealize ko kung gaano ang pasensiya na ibinigay sa akin ng asawa ko, ngayon na wala akong ginagawa, nalaman ko na mahal na mahal niya talaga ako. Ngayon, kahit noon pa, hindi niya nakakalimutan na sabihin sa akin na " I love you" bago siya umalis habang ako'y kunyaring natutulog at inaabangan ang kanyang goodbye kiss.

Nawalan ako ng panahon sa kanya, sarili ko lang ang naisip ko, pero nandyan pa rin siya, tulad noon, tulad dati, palagi siyang nandyan.

Umaga na, naka alis na siya, ni hindi ko man lang siya nangitian. naririnig ko ang mga huni ng ibon, at ang maliwanag na langit, ang sikat ng araw sa may bintana namin. Hindi mo ba sasabihin na suwerte ako? Wala akong trabaho, pero may isang tao na nagmamahal sa akin, oo hindi nga ako kagandahan, oo hindi rin ako sexy at hindi artistahin, pero may nagmamahal sa akin.

At dahil dyan nararamdaman ko na mahal din ako ng Diyos, na noon pa man, pinadala niya sa akin si Irwin para kung hindi man ako mabantayan ng Amang nasa Langit meron naman siyang katuwang sa pagsubaybay sa akin. Naniniwala ako na mahal talaga ako ng Diyos dahil kahit may masama akong ugali, hindi pa rin tumitigil sa pagunawa ang mga mhal ko sa buhay.

Subukan nyong huminto, tumingin sa bintana, ngumite, pakingan ang huni ng ibon, gumising ng umaga, magdasal at magpasalamat, at mahalin nang lubos ang mga tao sa paligid mo. Yun lang naman eh Pag Ibig, ay nakatira nga pala ako sa Pag Ibig, Pag Ibig Homes. =)

When I become what I hate

Someone close to me pointed out this weakness of mine, being too hypercritical.
I am not too critical, konti lang naman. Sabi kasi nilang huwag daw masyadong mapintas kasi babalik daw sa magiging anak mo. Nyaiks, eh wala pa naman akong anak kung saka-sakali baka ang pangit na ng magiging anak ko sa kapipintas ko.

Isa pang ugali na ayaw ko na sinabi rin sa akin, which is related sa last entry ko dito. On receiving gifts, dapat hindi binibilang or naghihintay ng kapalit. Well, siguro iba-iba nga ang mga pananaw ng tao. Irwin pointed out that I hate this ugali of an acquiantance of mine, na kapag may occasion, dapat may gift, at dapat may libre kung walang gift wala ring libre. Parang ganun. So what is the sense of celebrating kung parang kelangan ng ticket or entrance fee bago ka makalibre di parang binayaran mo rin ang sarili mong pagkain?

So siguro when giving gifts, give gifts from the heart hindi yung may hinihintay ka na libre or exchange sa binigay mo.

Sana magka baby na kami

Matanda na ako, kahit mukha akong bata. Kaya dapat lang daw na mag baby na kami. Pero paano nga ba? Nasa edad ba yun? Talaga bang pag matanda na, mahihirapan nang magka anak? Eh bakit yung iba, parang ang dali nilang magka anak? Kung sino talaga ang may gusto, yun ang hindi nagkakaroon, at kung sino naman ang marami nang anak sila pa nadadagdagan ng anak.
Parang kahit saan ako lumingon palaging may buntis, parang pinamumukha sa akin na ako rin dapat magbuntis na. Para namang hindi kami nag try, siguro dapat mag leave muna ako para walang stress. Haay, minsan kung iisipin mo din ang gastos parang ayaw mo nang magka anak, pero masarap ang may anak diba? At dapat hindi mo iisipin ang gastos?

Cooking Time

Well, since my MIL has a surgery and she can't move like before, I have to cook for them. Marunong na akong magluto ng Pesang Dalag. Ang pesang dalag ay parang tinola kasi may luya. Ang sarap, teka lang, parang nakalimutan ko na eto a ng mga ingredients:

Pesang Dalag
1 whole Dalag cut into serving size
1 malaking luya hatiin diagonally
3 cloves garlic
1/2 repolyo
1 sayote
3 teaspoon patis

First thing that we did was to wash the fish, tapos nilagan ni mommy ng mainit na tubig para matanggal ang amoy at lansa. Ginisa muna yung garlic at luya tapos saka nilagay yung patis then the dalag. Medium heat lang, after a while nilagyan namin ng isang basong mainit na tubig at pinakuluan na siya at saka niagay yung gulay. Huli ang repolyo. Pag malapit nang maluto.

Palengke na naman

Last Thursday, I tried to go home late, galing ako sa bahay namin sa Ugong, I thought maihahatid ako nila mama eh nasa Laguna pala. So hindi na rin ako nagpasundo kay Irwin galing sa amin. Medyo may halong takot at kaba ako, ngayon lang ako dadaan ng palengke, baka kasi ako ma holdup.

Grabe nagulat ako, pagdating ko sa palengke, tahimik, ang linis pa, maliwanag, hindi nakakatakot.
Tuyo na ang mga daan, wala na kasi halos na tao eh, may mga nagtitinda pa rin. pero maayos.
Akala ko mag special trip ako, buti na lang at may nakasabay ako. Ang mahal pa naman ng pamasahe ngayon.

Palengke Ulit

Looks like palengke will be one of tha places I have to be familiar with. I remember, ako lang pala ang sinsama ni mama na mamalengke, hindi pala sumasama ang iba kong mga kapatid, kasi alam nyo ba ang bargaining skills ni mama, sobrang tawad sa mga nagtitinda, as in, tapos lilibot at maghahanap kung saan may discount at tawad kahit na nasa kabilang parte pa yun ng palengke.
Ako naman last Sunday, I went there, shiyet para akong nakawala sa preso, I didn't know a trip to palengke would give me a thrill similar to orgasm. Ang ganda ng comparison ko noh, euphoria, para akong nakawala sa bahay. Excited ako, ewan ko kung bakit, ilang araw din akong nakakulong sa bahay, bahay opis lang lagi, haay sa wakas talaga nakalabas na ako. Pero golay! Ang dami kong binili, ang bigat, bumili ako ng rambutan, lansones, itlog, buko juice, manok at porkchop. Grabe, kaya siguro ako hindi lumaki ng husto kasi kahit nung bata ako nagbubuhat ako ng pinamili ng mama ko, hanggang sa mag asawa ako ako pa rin ang nagbubuhat, kaya minsan mas type ko ang mamili na lang sa supermarket, may sasakyan pa at si Irwin ang magbubuhat.

tagged by Toni

just passing a tag from toni to fellow w@wies...

1. what are the things you enjoy doing when there's no one around you?

Watch Koreanovela, Attic Cat my favorite right now, its funny and nakaka iyak rin, don't want anyone see me crying, write in my journal, wear sexy clothes tapos pag may tao na magpapalit na ako.

2. what lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?

Ice Cream, walking, day dreaming, internet on my favorite actor Kim Rae Woo,
music of Lovers in Paris, singing out loud, showers.

3. tag five friends and get it posted on their blogs.


ariel and ella
con and nel
trina and ken
joy and john

Sabaw ng palengke

Grabe, umuulan na naman ngayon, hindi ko suot ang aking favorite na slippers, kasi wala namang pink sa damit ko, (pero kahapon suot ko siya kahit naka black and white ako). Ayan tuloy nabasa ang laylayan ng slacks ko, basa ng katas ng palengke.

Everyday kasi I have to pass by the public market, and today is special kasi umuulan at maputik sa palengke. At least medyo nalinis na ang ibang parte ng palengke, konti lang ang kumapit sa laylayan ng pants ko.

Pero siyempre ang dumi pa rin nun. Kaya pagdating ko dito, mega putol ako ng pants ko, so what kung hindi pantay ang putol, at least wala na yung basa, at nag dumi pala ng paa ko, mamaya ko na lang huhugasan.

Havaianas and ME

Last Friday was our second month, August 5, 2005 and we celebrated it by buying the brazilian slippers and eating at California Pizza Kitchen. Now, while eating, I thought of making a separate blog for all our restaurant experiences. I just saw a blogsite where a cooking lawyer, posts all her cooking experiences and new recipe, It has several hits per month, and it looks like a recipe blog.

I so so, love my havaianas, it is pink, I am really looking for a pink havaianas.
Irwin's havaianas were black, some guy were eyeing the black pair that Irwin was holding, so hindi na niya binitawan.

My pink havaianas however were given to my by a girl, who bought several pairs, maybe 3 of them, buti na lang hindi na niya kinuha yun pink, she gave it to me,
when I tried it on, I had to agree, gosh, ang sakto sobra sa akin.

Siyempre, feeling tall ako sa havaianas ko, as in noh, suot ko siya sa bahay, and I make it sure na malinis ang talampakan ko bago ko siya isuot.

Tapos last night, I was washing the dishes in my havaianas, ang tangkad ko, siguro mga 2 inches additional. Hehehe. It is fun to wash the dishes in havaianas.

Happy na Rin

Sometimes, feeling ko parang praning ako na laging binabantayan ang mga kilos ko, siguro ganun din ang feeling ng iba na nakatira sa in-laws nila. Siguro, kelangan lang ng konting kapalan ng mukha meaning you have to be not too sensitive.
Kasi pag naging sensitive ka, konting hindi lang pinansin mag-iisip ka na ng kung anu-ano na wala naman pala.

Market Market sa Pasig

Namamalengke ako bago ako pumasok sa office:

Well, hindi naman ako namamalengke kundi sa palengke ako dumadaan.
Ang daming tao, ang daming syip, I always pass by the big garbage truck,
iniisip baka isang araw sumala ang pagtransfer nila ng basura matapunan ako.
Ilang beses na rin akong muntikan na mahagip ng mga dyip kasi nagmamadaling
lumiko. Kung iisipin mo, ano ang ginagawa ko, isang magandang pustura na babae
na dumadaan sa palengke? Eh kasi ang mahal ng pamasahe, dun lang ang mura,
kaya kahit na maglakad ako sa palengke araw araw bago pumasok ay okey lang.
Gustung-gusto ko na nadadaanan yung isang aso, na payat at pangit ang balat,
siguro may skin allergy yung aso. Nais ko nga siyang dalhan ng dogfood eh, kawawa
naman. Nakahiga lang siya, nakapikit, tila hindi niya pansin ang mabaho at magulong lugar na palengke. Naisip ko na dalhin siya sa bahay pero isa siyang pakawalang aso.
Matanda na siguro siya, kasi palagi siyang inaantok at hindi na siya masigla, natutuwa ako pag nakikita ko siya, kasi parang kahit na ganun ang paligid niya,
mukha pa rin siyang kuntento.
Well, sabi nga ni God, kung ang mga sparrow sa bukid ay may kinakain at ang mga fox ay may masisilungan, ang nga tao pa kaya? Eh yung asong yun buhay pa hanggang ngayon, hindi ko alam kung ano ang kinakain pero buhay pa sya.

Well, that is something to thank God for, buhay pa tayo. Bow.

Laba laba sa lababo

Washing Dishes

My goal today is to make under pots squeaky clean. Using a hard scrub and detergent bar, I scratch and scrab the undersurface but I cannot make it like it's original clean self. I enjoy washing the dishes in my new home. This is the home of my husband, this is their house, well I only wash plates for a maximum of five persons. Tatay Rene, Mommy Precy, Sister Maris and my Irwin.

Sometimes, cousin Jayvee would be here to sleep during Fridays and Saturdays so he would be here on sunday mornings. Still, it is a maximum of five plates plus the lalagyanan ng ulam.

Snow White

Last night, I saw an old film of Rosanna Roces and Vic sotto, gosh, she really has a white, flawless skin, ang kinis sa Tv at ang puti, siguro if my skin is half as fair as her, mas todo ganda na ako.

My MIL and I used to have a bonding moments putting whitening products on our skin, one of her officemates, gave her some chemicals to whiten the skin. It was supposedly used by "Artista" to make their skin flawless.

First, you have to apply a mixture of kalamansi and evaporada milk, Mommy put something in it that smells like peroxide. The mixture is about 2 cups and can be used for a week, well for us three, Mommy, Tatay and me, siguro mga 3 days lang. Hati-hati kasi kami. Then, after applying the calamansi, you have to put the soap and another chemical mixture, all I know is that the soap consists of shredded Dove soap. I do not know what chemical was placed in it.
After 30 minutes of letting it dry on the skin, you have to wash it off. Skin feels so soft maybe because of the Dove soap and my skin feels so smooth because of the calamansi.
We've been doing it for like a month now, If only I discovered it a month before the wedding, I could be really flawless.

I am happy with my skin now, though it is not so fair, it is smooth and also my feet, you've got to believe it, nakikita ko tuloy ang mga ugat ko na dati ay natatakpan ng morena kong balat. Well, mahirap talagang magpaputi, minsan gusto ko nang matulog eh pero para dahil gusto kong gumanda sacrifice ng konti para magmukhang beauty ako. Haay, isa na lang siguro, I have to loose weight.

Delayed period

Kala ko naman, buntis na ako, grabe ilang pregnancy test din ang nasayang ko, I thought I was pregnant, shiyet, really, I am having pregnancy symptoms, pero wala pa rin pala, I gained weight, I have tender breast, biglang lakas ang kain ko, tapos delayed period pa ako, ngayon I have spotting, not really the real period, konti lang, siyempre hopeful pa rin ako na sana buntis na nga ako.
I never had any pressure naman or stress, pero nung na stress talaga ko, kasi nagalit ako dun sa isa kong officemate, as in nainis ako tapos the next day, I got my period, sobrang stress nagkaroon ako, I thought stress would make your period stop, now naman ang iniisip ko, baka mamaya buntis ako, tapos spotting lang. Haay! Talagang ang daming katwiran. Ano ba Agnes! Hindi ka buntis!!!!!

So what do we now, maybe we need to exercise and diet, ang taba kasi naming dalawa eh.

Makeup to the Max

Ganun pala!

Nung boyfriend ko pa lang si Irwin, her mother would always tell me to powder my face, oily face kasi ako eh, minamasa ko pa yun pag sinasabihan ako. Kasi I am really not the maayos type, kasi sometimes I do not want to appear pretty for fear na they would perceive me na maarte, Eh ang arte ko kaya, pag sinisipag ako saka lang ako nag-aayos.

Check out my Buhay May Asawa blog

Weeks have passed and we are almost 6 weeks married. My blog on Buhay may Asawa are more updated pero magulo pa, andun ang lahat ng kuwento ko. As in, adjust to the max ang buhay may asawa. Bahay bahayan ganun pala yun. Masaya, malungkot kasi namatay ang lola ni Irwin. Mabait pa naman yun.

Adjustment Blues

How many days am I married?

I am 44 days married, so far, do I like it? Well, I feel like I am still on vacation, because the house that we are living looks like a resort room. It is a new house, it was owned by one of our Ninongs, they let us stay there. There is an aircon in every part of the room except the bathroom. We pay no rent, we only pay the utility bills.

We only have a ref, a washing machine and an oven, which we don't use. We only used the TV, we got them as gifts from Perfect Moment. Last week, we bought a matress, before we used to lie down on the floor with only a comforter as sheet.

My husband's family has their own helper who washes and irons the clothes plus cleans the house. They have an orderly house, I kinda miss our house, kasi mas magulo, mas masaya, though I like living there, nothing compares sa bahay namin.
Dito I have to always clean, clean as you go, though I didn't really have that attitude pero nasanay na ako. Burara daw ako sabi ni Mama ko, kaya hindi ako makapagkalat kila Irwin, mabuti na rin yun. Pero Irwin is makalat din, kung ako nga trying hard to be makalat siya makalat, pero siyempre they expect me to pick up the mess, kaya ayun, sinabihan ko si Irwin na iayos ang mga kalat nya.

I also told him na, if we are living in a different house, I could scold him at siya ang magliligpit ng kinain namin, well, the only thing that I do there is to wash the plates after eating, I like naman what I am doing except for the time na pagod na ako, and everyone watches "Kampanerang Kuba" ako naman kahit hindi ko panoorin basta lang makaligpit na ako at maka akyat na sa taas. Haay so pagkatapos ng Kuba dapat medyo tapos na rin akong magligpit. Monday's are hectic for me, kasi I still have to put the pressed clothes sa aparador at ayusin, minsan sa pagod, kinabukasan ko na gagawin, but I do not want to appear tamad naman, so kahit na pagod aayusin ko na.

False Pregnancy

Sayang, I thought I was pregnant:

I thought I was pregnant, I'm having 3 symptoms out of 10, I had three and none of them was the "missing the period" part, maybe I am just paranoid, in my desire to get pregnant, I am having pregnancy symptoms.

Every smells is repulsive, even the tiniest things, food that I used to love now suddenly taste so bland, o maarte lang ako? Hindi eh, hindi rin kaartehan.

I bought a pregnancy kit, and it is a negative, haay! kelan kaya ulit?
Next month na ulit?

Pagod
Wawa naman sila mama, Irwin at Dita, they were with me, ang dami kong pala noh! Kasi Mama, was not able to have her photo taken with Jodi, Angel and Rosanne so eto sumama sya at least she has the time now.
Ang hirap palang maghintay at mag shooting, ewan ko kung paano nakakaya ng mga artista yung tuluy-tuloy na shooting. Siguro okey lang din kasi malaki naman ang bayad nila, pero sayang ang sarap pa naman mag stay sa bahay, one of those rainy days, quiet storm.
Chance pa naman namin to do our Project, hehehehe.

Rice, Adobo and Wintermelon

Eto ang lunch namin, galing ito sa Tamayo's. I was feeling kinda not so hungry kaya hindi ako gaanong nakakain, pero ang sarap nung gulay.

Cupcake-cake, lechon paksiw and pansit

Eto naman ang dinner namin, prepared for everybody, I had two of the cupcakes, a little rice and some lechon, kami lang ang may rice yung iba wala, kasi siyempre, favorite nila kami, hehehehe. There were a lot of times, na kasama namin sila, sa wedding and to think it is our one month anniversary! ang galing! tama ba ang term.

smile naman
I was the only one smiling, and dancing, kahit na low bat na ako, haay! Ang hirap talaga as in. Na umarte na everything is okey at hindi ka pagod, Sabi nila ako lang daw ang sumasayaw at nag smile siyempre game na game ako.
Pero alang hiya yung cameraman, pag nag focus yung dalawang katabi ko ang pinakikita, at ako mag isa lang, haay anyway at least, may exposure,

Inspiration
Ano na nga ba ang sinabi ko, they really inspired me to be my best, kahit tapos na ang wedding, parang it is an obligation to myself to look better, to take care of my skin, to be confident, and be the best, all the best. I owe it to them for giving me all this, I take everything as a blessing. Honestly, there was a time, I know nung hindi ko pa alam na they will choose me, I secretly wish na sana they would choose me, I needed that makeover, I needed that exposure, I am slowly losing myself. To loose myself is to think na I am not better, I look fat and ugly, I looked down on myself and that experience taught me a lot, I can be better, I can be the best!

Model daw

I am seated beside two young girls, the other I think is seventeen and the other is nineteen both college students, whew! suddenly I feel old, halata pag sila ang kasama ko! Bwahahahaha!

There is this one girl, sa Episode na Model, she is from UA&P, richy girl, astigin at bratilla! Pareho sila ng katabi niyang student din from Letran. Haay, maybe I am just reacting kasi mga bata, I cannot relate, epekto siguro ito ng pag-aasawa.

Gosh, maya't maya nagpapa retouch ng makeup, as if it would make a difference! Nye, ako kasi accepted ko na hindi talaga ako photogenic, konting tao lang ang nakakakita ng tunay kong kagandahan! Naks! Sa personal na lang. =)

Short Hair

I am sporting a new hair, short! Similar to what I had a year ago.
Since mainit naman at tapos na ang wedding, why not have a new look?
Just got back from the shooting of Perfect Moments Episode 15, "The Reunion". I didn't informed my boss that I will be on leave today.
I was looking forward to this day, a day of makeup, retouches and rubbing elbows with the celebrities.

Shooting na naman ng Perfect Moments

Haay! Just when we were trying to relax heto na naman at may
shooting na naman sa Perfect Moments. I had an haircut, really short,
Barbie's cradleish! hehehe, sabi ni Viols ng David's salon, well we have the
same shape of face, sana pa face na talaga!

Project B.A.B.Y

We've been married for like a month tomorrow!
And we plan to have a baby soon, but he got sick for a week,
I've got my period and now I'm waiting for my fertile weeks ahead.
Hope, we have all the energy to to the task, we're back to work
and sobrang nakakapagod talaga. Haay!
Hope we will have one soon.

Super Mommy in Law

Well, What can I say, I've got a Stepfordish mother-in-law,
she is so domesticated, sometimes I want to be like her.
She cooks great food, no wonder, Irwin is so big, as in sobrang asikaso
talaga sila. Haay! I wish I could learn how to cook like her.
Sobrang devoted sa pagiging housewife but she works, pero pagdating nya
she still manage to cook. Haay! Super talaga si Mommy, I love her!

Buhay may asawa:

We've been married for three weeks and I am slowly adjusting to married life. Somehow I missed my family, my sisters, ang magulong bahay namin, kahit makalat,
it is a home. Now, I feel like crying, hu hu hu. =(
Pero masaya ako na kasama ko si Irwin, he got sick, I enjoyed caring for him, parang nurse, huwag ko nga daw siyang i-baby.

I like their house, his family and his relatives. I like his mom's cooking, they have an organized house, hindi naman ako nahirapan na maging organize, eh hindi ako organized! Saksakan kaya ako ng kalat, kung saan saan ko lang nilalagay ang gamit ko, and I never put it back kung saan ko kinuha.

So everything is a new experience from me, though hindi na ako masyadong nahihiya.
Pag uwi ko, I make it a point to "bless" sa parents niya, natutuwa naman sila, alam ko, they never showed me anything na ikasasama ng loob ko. They are good people, though strict, I can manage to live with them.

Feeling ko parang extension pa rin ng honeymoon or vacation when I live at their house, his mom is very maasikaso, I could already feel na I am part of their family na, living with them for two weeks.

Well, sana magtuloy-tuloy ang pagiging in-good terms ko with my in laws.
Kakatuwa, mommy (mami ni Irwin) gave me some bags and shirts na inaalok sa kanya sa office nila. Of course I feel good.

She is a good cook, at talagang mommy, she devoted her life to caring for her children, kaya lumaking spoiled sila Irwin. Haay, when it is my turn to be a mother, I hope I could be a good mother too.

Ish, Lari and Merce my coordinator friends

They volunteered to coordinate my wedding. At first I was hesitant kasi I want them to enjoy our wedding. I said I will hire a coordinator para hindi na sila mahirapan.
But they insisted that they do it. So sila na nga. I wanted my wedding to be simple lang, no fuss, hindi magarbo, hindi OA.

This wedding was prepared, 1 year advance but the actual preparation started when we booked our suppliers which was last December lang. but before that we've been through a lot of venue, bridal fairs, lahat ng bridal fair present kami, we have no difficulty naman kasi Irwin has a transpo. Alam namin kung ano ang gusto namin, cost effective na wedding. We would like to emulate a hotel wedding na hindi expensive.

Okey back to them, so it was like an OTD coordination, as early as two months or a month before the wedding, we were just discussing through mails or over phones kung ano ang mga gagawin, I had it all prepared for them para hindi na mahirap pero came weeks before the wedding when nobody responded to our RSVP, our problem began.

I would send everything through mails, tapos nag uusap kami ni Ish. Siya ang main point person. Actual meeting was Friday, because I called her and dapat magkausap sila ng taga Perfect Moment because they are covering our wedding.

Saturday, they went to the hotel and duscussed everything, lahat ng kulang, lahat inayos na.

It was hassle free for me, I had some mild tension because of the delay sa videographer and sa makeup artist pero everything was handled naman, Ako lang ang praning.

So how would I rate a coordinator friend, I'd say, it was like having a real/paid coordinator, maybe more, kasi they know you, they care for you, alam nila kung paano mapapaganda ang wedding nang hindi ka na maiistorbo. My wedding was like a fiesta, ang daming tao, ang saya, they were only like 3 or four of them plus my sisters and brothers, pero they were able to handle the situation. Bilib ang family ko sa kanila, even the guest, alam nila kung ano ang hirap at sacrifice na binigay nila sa wedding namin.

Considering I attended a wedding last June 19 with a coordinator, OUT of the BOX, sila Christine Daria plus her husband and 3 more staff, litaw sila kasi they were wearing pink tops, they handled the registration, and sa church, ay sus, ganun lang pala ka simple ang pag co coordinate sa wedding, kasi they have less guest, yung sa labas ng church kami pa ang natanong kung sila ang coordinator kasi hindi siya lumalapit to ask kung sino ang mag shower ng flowers. Then they asked for the signtures of the guest, then they collected the table number per table, simple lang pala. Kayang kaya.

Well, coordinators are there to make your wedding easy and hassle free, as for me, I enjoyed my wedding and so is everyone else.

UP Madrigal Singers

Waaaa! Naiiyak ako, ang ganda ng mga kanta nila, as in the church ceremony was so solemn, everybody agreed, it was a great wedding. Church pa lang yan ha. Yabang ko.
You know they were so effective, that when they sang Panunumpa, sakto na pagpasok ko, kanta sila ng "Ikaw lamang ang pangakong mahalin..." it was so dramatic, well sabi nila. =) Umiyak si Irwin, Inipon ko lahat ng willpower ko to never cry, ewan ko kung paano ko ginawa, it was like a dream, na parang nag float lang ako. I never looked at anybody while marching, baka ako maiyak, ang bilis ko nga daw maglakad baka kasi if I see a familiar face, na umiiyak ako rin umiyak.

So I tried to walk fast, (shet sana mabagal lang) looked in front, naiwan ko nga yata ang mama at papa ko eh. Well, I also fear na baka madapa ako sa slip on sandals ko. =) nakalimutan ko nga silang i-kiss, shiyet, wala ngang kiss. Pero nagmano ako sa mommy at tatay ni Irwin, kasi nagmano siya kila mama and papa. Haay, if only I could do it all again...

Okey back to Madrigal Singers, one of their members at siyempre kapitbahay ko na naman, (Para bang gusto mo na ring tumira sa UGONG, Pasig) is kababata namin. Same community, church, kalye etc. Ninang ko ang tita niya.
Friends nila Mama ang relatives nila, kung baga parang kapitbahay talaga!

We were checking kung strings ba or choir. Siyempre, punta na naman kami sa lahat ng bridal fair, hanap ng magandang kakanta for the church, kung strings, church and reception nasa 10K. Okey na rin, then we asked the choir of Nuestra Senora, nasa 5K yata, may coordinator na. hmm, if I pay 5K for the choir of NSDG, why not ask Perlita of Madz kung magkano sila.

So I went to their, house, inquired and finally may price na, she was willing to give it to me at half the price, 6 singers lang, bawal pa nga yun eh, kung di lang niya close yung Manager nila, pero bawal nga talaga yun eh, pero nakuha pa rin namin.
Sayang lang she wasn't there.

I decided that it was Madrigal or nothing, I do not want anybody to sing in our wedding except them, buti na lang I can afford them. Buti na lang friend ko si Perl.
Buti na lang. Ang saya saya ko!

I even bought their two albums eh para pumili ng songs nila, Haay! Ang galing wala akong masabi.

I give them a 10 + 10.

Fiorgelato Ice Cream

Well, ang sarap mag food tasting dito, I was impressed with them, mahusay kausap. Kahit ilang ice cream sa food tasting pwede mong kainin pero limited flavors lang, madali daw naubos yung ice cream kasi nag take home kami ng tig 1/4 per flavor. Hehehe. They served the ice cream yata? Yung iba pumila, yung iba served.
Well, wala naman akong naging problem with them, discounted pa kasi sa Fair ko sila na booked, so I give them a rate of 10 na rin.

Cord, Arrhae and Wedding Rings

Well, everything was taken cared of by my Mother in Law, the arrhae and cord were similar to their own arrhae. It consist of 1947 Philippine coin, yung babae na nakagown na nililipad na nakatayo, yun ang coin namin. Plus the ring costs 9K lang sa Pasig, kasi dun kumukuha ng alahas si Mommy (my mother is Mama) kaya mura lang at kahit na anong gusto mong design pwede. Sandali lang nakuha, makapal pa, white gold siya, ang cost parang 700 per gram yata eh. Ganun.

Mang Soseng paparazzi

I hired a papparazzi to take pictures of the guest, ito yung mga manong na nagbebenta ng mga pictures sa simbahan, pero siya official. He is 30 years in business, he lives in Ugong, kapitbahay ulit namin. Total payment ko sa kanya is 2100, bonus na yung 100. I want to help him kasi ito lang ang kabuhayan niya. Kung walang client, wala silang pera, nakita ko lang kasi ang quality ng pix niya nung sagala sa amin, he took some pictures of my sister na sagala, ang ganda. Film ang gamit niya. As in, I cannot believe, ang ganda ng mga kuha niya. So I hired him to be my backup photog, pero ang kausap ko asawa niya hindi siya mismo.

Ang laki ng kasalanan ko sa kanya, hindi ko nasabi kay Irwin na I hired him. Pagdating sa church, shemay sinungitan siya ng mga manang, as in nakakahiya siguro, eh matanda na yung tao, kawawa naman. May mga ibang papparazzi, lumayo na nung nalaman na nagalit yung mga manang. I did not even tell Mimi and Karl, lalo akong naawa sa kanya kasi hindi siya makasingit sa kuhaan ng pictures, siguro all the while they thought he was just a papparazzi. Sumisingit kasi siya eh, nasisingitan sila Karl and Mimi. Haay! Iyon lang ang malaking panghihinayangan ko. Ayaw kong makasakit ng tao, pero ito may tao akong nasaktan.

He was good, he knows all the good poses, there was a time na he asked us Irwin to pose, tapos pati sila Mimi and Karl nakikuha ng pictures.

Haay, siyempre matanda na maramdamin, nakisakay siya dun sa sasakyan nila Mariz, pinasakay naman siya, he has some good pictures, at malinaw, hindi siguro siya nagpapadevelop sa KODAK kasi di niya siguro afford, dun lang siguro sa Pasig.

Nanghingi pa nga ng balance yung wife niya para matubos yung ibang pictures kasi nga, yung unang 600 lang na binigay ko pinambili lang niya ng film.

Pagkakain niya sa reception umuwi na, kwento ng wife niya nagalit daw. Haay, pero naiintindihan naman daw kami. Pero haay..

Lahat talaga kami naawa sa kanya, we even tried to compute kung magkano ang kita niya, siyet kahit na kalahati yata hindi umabot. Haay... Kaya nung binigay nung last ng mga pictures binigyan namin ng souvenir mug at leche flan.

So if anyone wants a backup photo I recommend him, binigay namin yung mga photo niya kung sino mang ang nandun sa pix. Rate ko sa kanya, 10 din, maganda kasi ang kuha niya.

Eddie Bruan Makeup

I got them from the last Bridal Fair in The Fort, they did my make up during the 5th year anniversary of W@w. So hindi na ako naghanap ng iba. I got the package of 8500 for four instead of three because I reminded him of his package last W@w anniv, which was a year ago.


That was suppose to be for my mother, 2 sister and me, well, since ABS provided their own make up artist, I was able to save one kaya lahat na lang sila dun nagpa makeup, plus my cousin.

They arrived at exactly 10am, call time, 4 sila, one fixes the hair, the others do the makeup. Since nauna sila they want to have the makeup session facing the window. Pumayag naman ako. Hindi ko naisip na wala akong gagamitin.

Wala na akong nagawa when they transferred the table in front of the mirror to the window side. Late kasi ang makeup artist ng ABS eh, so nauna silang na makeupan. They got the best place in the hotel room. They started to do the makeup for my mother and 2 sisters. I thought sandali lang ang makeup, it took hours pala.

I was instructed by Mimi na dapat ang gown ay beside the window para maganda ang effect. Eh nauna na sila Eddie Bruan, hindi ko na napigil. I was not assertive enough sa gusto ko. since late and makeup artist ng ABS, I have less shots, tapos nang makeupan ang lahat ng entourage ako, 1:30 na yata natapos.

My package included Shu Eumura and Mac yata eh, I forgot na pero ang sabi ni irwin he used Awake daw for my mom para bongga. Pero hindi iyon ang nasa package, natuwa ako, hehehe, kasi mas mahal yun eh, maybe he want them to look good compared to my makeup done by Skilz salon.

Nahuling makeupan yung maid of honor and cousin ko eh, kasi they went out to buy some food for the crew, eh nung tapos nang makeupan ang first batch, hinahanap na sila. I told them they were buying food sabi ni Eddie " okey lang bumubuli naman pala ng pagkain eh". There is something here that irritated me, so I called them right away and pinabalik ko na sila at huwag na silang bumili ng pagkain. I just asked my brothers to buy the food kasi kadadating lang.


My fault, I asked them to buy pa. so when they arrived inayusan na sila, nauna pa rin sila sa akin, because I was waiting for them to finish because I want the window! Nung wala pa sila Ate, dapat pinalipat na sila dun sa inner room eh, pero walang katinag tinag. Gusto nila dun, I sufferred for a while, na tense ng konti.

Plan B, ABS crew took the table sa kabilang room, sa room nila Irwin, so mga 12 na yata ako inayusan. Pero, Skilz makeup artist was there na ng 11 am. We were waiting for them to finish their makeup. Whew! All the time I want to look calm and relax. Pero toxic talaga ito! ako ang bride ako ang nawalan ng pwesto, last na tuloy akong make upan. Pero todo smile pa rin ako kasi I do not want to change mood and be depressed sa lahat ng mga nangyayari.

Yung makeup nilang 5 was great, pero hindi ko type and ayos ng hair ni Ate, since nahuli sila, baka hindi na inayos, or maybe they tried to hide yung ears ni ate or baka dahil na-free ang isa,hindi na inayusan. I do not know the reasons. Kaya nung umalis na sila Eddie, SKilz tried to redo her hair, inayos at nilagyan ng clip.

Pero they stayed pa, naki chikka sa mga taga ABS, nagtatanong tanong, I do not know kung ano talaga ang effect ng media sa mga suppliers ko.

Since nauna silang ma makeupan, mga 2:00 or 1:30 pm, parang oily na ang face nila, mabuti na lang at andun pa rin ang Skilz salon, they put some powder on them para less ang oil.

All in all, I got one for free, they arrived early, they were able to do their job, mas maganda nga kasi parang may competition between him and sa makeup artist ng ABS eh. Pero it is unfair to blame them sa nangyari, sana lang pumayag sila to transfer sa inner room kahit na mahirap mag setup ulit. Pero regrets and there are no more next time. =) Puro sana lang.

So I will give them a rating of 9, for the little stress of not being able to have the makeup fronting the window and not being cooperative.
Everything would have been different kung wala ang media kasi believe me, everybody gets excited and shows a different behavior when they are around pero under normal circumstances, suppliers are normal.

Aling Norma's Gown

What can I say everything in my wedding is inexpensive, as in super
duper Practical yet elegant and beautiful. Ento gowns costs 800 each
labor lang, pero ang ganda, siyempre maganda din ang color motiff ko.
Sinabi ko lang na may beads siya na ang bahala, hindi na ako
kumokontra sa kanya.

She is kinda moody kasi madalas magkasakit and her shop is open only
until 8pm. Kaya ang rush jobs, pero siyempre mas maganda na ibigay na
lahat sa kanya ng mas maaga.

She didn't give me a problem, ako ang problem sa kanya kasi ang tagal
dumating nung mga sukat ng mga ento. Well, everything turns out well
naman, I am very pleased with her work. As in, parang Fashion Forward
or yung mga tinda sa mall.

Para kay Aling Norma, for making my ento more pretty than me, ay este
para sa mga gown ng ento ko, I give them a 10.

Alex Franco Cakes

Irwin wants a satellite cake, I want a big layered cake, well
pagbigyan ang groom. The ABS staff didn't eat from the buffet table
pero mga tsong pinapak ng husto ang cake ni Alex, ayan tuloy hindi na
nakatikim ang iba. =) (because there is a shortage of plates) They
called it an addiction lalo na si Direk Tots. well, if it weren't for
Alex cakes, baka ref lang ang ibigay sa akin or TV lang. hehehehe.

Okey lang na the ABS staff ate his cake, at least I was able to
impress them with Alex's cake. Though everyone wants it! Naghahanap sa
akin! Well, pagbigyan na rin si Alex, if he served it to them, dadami
ang suki niya. Pero sayang talaga, hindi lahat nakatikim ng cake niya.
What else can I say, everybody loved his cake, I ordered 2 agad after
to serve it to Perfect Moments again, surely, if you want to impress
or brag, serve them his cake.

Got the rates of last year pa, so it stays at 12 thou plus the 1500
for the fruits. Ay pati pala vegetables, mind you may isang guest na
naguwi ng calabasa. =) at isang guest na sinupot ang mga kalamansi!
I believe they are part of his decorations. hehehehe.

Just wished there are more plates so EVERYBODY enjoyed his cake.
I'll give him a rating of 10 na rin for impressing the Perfect Moments
crew.

Mimi Abesamis and Karl de Leon- Photography

I believe that I am just a simple girl with simple wants so I do not want anything unnecessary on my wedding. We've tried to find the right photographer who could match our personality.
WE've checked through a lot of websites, bridal fairs, w@w anniversaries, photo links of w@wies and other referrals but I still couldn't find what I was looking for, when I saw Pazette's photo taken by Mimi and Karl, I know I already have a photographer.
I was secretly wishing that we can afford their package and when they offerred their promo, we took it right away.
They are the 2nd supplier that we booked, first was the church. The package includes a photo album plus the prenups. I inquired telling Mimi that I saw Pazette's pictures.
Mimi was very accommodating and professional. Karl is the quiet one but I know deep inside he can really be funny. Mimi takes the still shots, Karl took the candid. They are a good team, we are comfortable with them, that is an important thing when choosing a photographer. They looked liked our barkada or an officemates, I just do not see them as our photographer because they are more than that.
During the prenups and the preparation until the end of the wedding, I can see them working hard. You can see their passion in getting the pictures right.
In choosing a photographer, I first checked the price if we can afford it, then their sample album, then the shots, I do not want fancy shots, I do not want to jump in my wedding dress, I do not want to look like a was waiting or something na talagang nakakatawang pose or something na parang cheap. Kaya nga parang photojournalistic eh, real pictures, kung ano talaga ang nangyari, hindi orchestrated. Hate na hate kong makakita ng mga wedding pictures na ganun, lalo na sa mga sample, well that is not my type, kaya with them, tamang tama lang, simple, just like me and Irwin but you can tell that they are really professional.
I just wish that we had that picture at the hotel lobby or staircase of Dusit, they are so toxic already with the wedding they simply had to go when it ends.
For Mimi and Karl, I give them a rate of 10, for being so patient nung nagkakagulo ang ABS sa preps, for giving us pictures as I want them, for making my wedding stand out kahit na simple lang siya.They were able to make it so real and I know they also enjoyed our wedding, working with them is an unforgettable one. Parang supplier sila na hindi supplier. They are more like friends. =)

Robert Camba Catering

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When we decided that we will be having our reception in a clubhouse, our next stop would be the catering. I had this material from a Bridal Fair in Megamall and I've seen this free tiffany chairs, I computed the basics and it really is free. We took their Silver Package for 150 guests, all inclusive of gazebo, tiffany chairs, ice carving, bubble machine, dove and wine etc. We had a total of 120 invitations sent out, our guests counted to 300. We really had a problem with the guest count. It was initally planned that Irwin's guest from their neighborhood will just be going to their house but since there will be no one left to accommodate them, we included them in our guest list. Weeks before the wedding, my own father keeps on calling relatives asking them to come and I've lost track of it. What I did was just ask Santa to add three more tables.
From the original 150 it went up to 200 then 210 plus 2 tables plus chairs, then we added again 3 more tables plus 2 tables and chairs for a total of 280 heads.
Well, I only informed them of the changes a day before the wedding, and the additions were not met. The food is good for 210 heads only and it was able to feed at least 300. It was the miracle of the bread and fish. I couldn't believe it. I didn't know all about this, after the wedding na lang, pero bilib ako na napagkasya nila ang food.Santa was able to give me 2 head waiters, kasi nga they knew ABS would be covering the wedding. The waiters were wearing nice uniforms, the setup of the gazebo was more that I can think of from them, kasi nga I do not want gazebo, sa kanila, may gazebo na may pedestals pa! As in ang ganda ganda, sobrang natuwa ako. Ang ganda ng setup nila, siyempre makikita sa TV, well is one of the advantage of media, they will really try thier best to make it beautiful. At sabi ng mga coord friends ko at brother ko, kahit ano ang hilingin at tanungin, ibibigay. Magaling, I really appreciate ABS ksi andun sila, okey ang performance ng mga supplier and Robert Camba for siyempre maganda at tipid ang wedding ko.
Though no one checks for the ulo ng lechon, and my cousins pala gave tips sa ibang waiter para bigyan sila ng food.
For the food, we had fettuccini, fish fillet, beef spareribs, chicken teriyaki,shrimp with vegetables and desserts. Natman ko lang yung pasta, ang sarap, the rest I was not able to taste it. Pasta was good and the fish fillet, yun lang ang may feedback sa ibang food walang feedback from guest.
Sayang lang hindi nadagdag ang additional tables ko pero they were able to provide galing sa Greenmeadows, orocan tables and chairs na nilagyan na lang ng white cover.
Plus they used the bread plate for the lechon and not the cake. So there is a shortage of plates.
The rating I will give for them will be 10, for the wonderful setup sa reception, they do have the bread plates, pero kulang at ginamit sa lechon pero she gave it to me for free. For the two head waiters, and for the rest of the request ng mga coords ko. People were impressed sa kanila kasi ng kulang ang food na solusyunan na nila.

Greenmeadows Clubhouse

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We've been to a lot of venues, Kasalikasan, The Loft, Corinthians Garden Clubhouse, Richmonde, Astoria, Discovery Suites, Legend Villas, Makati Palace Hotel, City Garden Hotel, The Heritage Library, etc. Name it al least we knew it. After considering the budget we choose to have it a clubhouse. The Greenmeadows Clubhouse was referred by Ella Mendoza a w@wie who uploaded some pictures at w@w. We right away went there for an ocular and paid the full amount.

The place has a garden, ang ganda nga eh, imagine ka na lang na nasa Fernwoods ka.
May pool and palyground, it was a nice place for the kids, takbuhan agad, nagsidulasan nga ang bia eh, kasi umulan nung umaga, basa ang grounds.

It could accommodate 350 guests, airconditioned and rain free. The only thing that I hate it here is the security, well hate and like it, with a wedding that has little or no RSVP from guest, how can we expect to write all the names of the guest in alphabetical order? Three days before the wedding we were worried on the headcount, my sister was writing by hand the list of the guest in order, sunday morning. It was picked up by Lari to be brought to the security office. Whew,
even our bridal car was questioned, Hello, may flowers na nga sa kotse eh, may kasal nga sa Clubhouse, naka barong kami at ako naka gown? Tanungin pa kung saan pupunta? hehehehe.

The list are some little things that has been taken for granted and could have been done days before but if you canot track your guest be ready with a list.

Well, actually minor lang naman eh, if their names are not included, the security will ask for an ID. Simple lang naman eh, e di magiwan sila ng ID. I mean, I realized do not sweat the small stuff. Akala ko kasi hindi sila papapasukin, I called to verify.

Funny thing is, nagalit pa ang papa ko kung hindi daw papapasukin ang mga bisita niya hindi daw siya pupunta sa kasal. Haay, sensitive ang father ko. Kasi he was the one who invited everybody and can't keep track kung sino ang sinabihan niya eh. =)

We got the bond of 5K, kasi the staff there made it sure na ok ang place para makuha ng buo ang bond, we gave an Alex Franco cake, wine for the guards and 50 each for the three sweepers who kept it clean after the function.

May nakalimutan pa ngang bag of trash and Robert Camba eh, sila na ang bahala.

I'll give them a rate of 9, kasi nahirapan si ate sa guest list, requirement pa nila. At saka hinarang pa ang bridal car namin.

LINOI Haute Couture

I am an unconventional bride. I've seen so many gowns worn by brides since I was a member of w@w and I couldn't find the right designer for me. I was looking for something inexpensive.

The hunt for the right gown for me was over the minute I talked to LINOI and saw the gown on display.

We used to go to Divisoria and looked at the gowns by Mrs. Bautista, it looked too decorative for me. I want something simple yet elegant, I am just a simple girl, short and I do not want to looked like a trying hard bride.

LINOI was very kind, as in kind and very humble. My gown was an Xchange Deal, he makes my gown, Irwin makes his computer, so my gown turned out to be so simple yet beautiful with real swarovski crystals.

Yes, he has a package that is too costly pero talk to him, he will give you what you can afford.

He was so good to me that his kindness finally paid off, he was included in our shooting for Perfect Moment, it was his time to shine, to showcase his talent, recently he has a Bridal Fashion show at Manila Hotel. His mother died but the show must go on, he has to be there.

Though he doesn't know me and made my gown, Irwin's tita was a longtime suki of LINOI, Irwin's cousin had their prom dresses made by him. He also made the Mother of the Groom, Auntie Gaya's gown and AC's gown. All by LINOI. It costs less than 5K each, 3 thousand to be exact with discount. My mother had her gown which costs 1800 for labor plus the cost of the fabric, it could be 2500 but with LINOI he places real swarovski so the price is higher.


I just can't find the right words to say to him, I am so glad I was included in Perfect Moment because just to see the works of the suppliers on TV is I think enough to thank them for their works.

For LINOI who has been kind to even lend me a mannequin, makes my pillows even changed my veil. I give him a 10 + 10.

Invitation by Print Associates

We've been to a lot of bridal fairs, seen a lot of invitations, been to QP Designs, Printlane and inquired at Printed Matters but never did I checked our friendly neighborhood printing shop. Christian Nacional who operates Print Associates was my childhood kapitbahay and church mate.

I asked Irwin to take care of the invitation, he browsed through the internet, and seen this design of two kids holding hands and I do not know why he chose that. I was touched and pleased because of what was written in front.

Friends said that it was our mark, it was really personalized. It was really me and Irwin. We are not the conventional couple, we are hitting on our 30 years of age and still we feel like we are still children, a child. Maybe we are childish but that is how we are. And so the cover is very appropriate.

Invitation costs 60 each, laminated, with free layout, they do not really make wedding invitations by the bulk. If you want something that you see at Recto, they will have to ask Recto to make it for them. Designs came from us, the background pictures was an idea from his own wedding invitation which I copied.

He was easy to talk to and he was just two houses away, so every morning before I go to work, I checked the status of the invitations.

When you want to have your invitation done by them, be ready will all the materials, pictures, layout, designs etc. They made the invitation for two weeks, because they really do not make wedding invitations so in case na you get them, exclusive na sa inyo lang siguro ang gagawin nila.

Wish ko lang, sana mas makapal pa ang paper na ginamit, pero I was not able to see the final layout before they run it sa printing press. Ok lang sa akin yun, I trust him naman eh.

He was willing to share his ideas, wala na akong masasabi pa sa invitation ko. Maganda talaga siya at cheap pa.

For Print Associates, I gave them a 10++

Angelic Blooms Flowers

Alex Franco recommended Angelic Blooms for our flowers, at first we were talking with Flowers of May in a Bridal Fair at the Fort, Designer Blooms at Megamall, Irwin's Ninang Merlene also recommended a florist in Pasig who wants me to carry a cascading boquet of orchids and unconventional flowers which of course I did not accept. I also contacted a friend's sister who designs flower as a hobby.

We ended up with them, we were worried because when we went to their shop, and they sent me the quotes it was different from the ones that we discussed. But when we were finally able to meet for the payment, she was able to take down the changes and all our wishes for the wedding were put into paper.

On the day of the wedding, Mimi instructed us that a delay in the makeup artist and flowers would mean less pictures. Well, their delay was acceptable kasi wala pa ang makeup artist ko. Haay! when they arrived, ang gaganda ng mg bulaklak, exactly as I imagined it to be, even more. Buhay na buhay ang kulay just like what I want.

Fir Biyen and Angelic Blooms, I give them a rate of 10+++

Something Good

Perhaps I had a wicked childhood
Perhaps I had a miserable youth
But somwhere in my wicked, miserable past
There must have been a moment of truth

For here you are, standing there, loving me
Whether or not you should
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

For here you are, standing there, loving me
Whether or not you should

So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could

So somewhere in my youth
Or childhood
I must have done something . . .
Something good

The Perfect Wedding

June 5, 2005, it was 8 am and it was raining! I wont let the rain dampen my mood because I know what I have to do that day is more important than the rain. I am marrying my best friend, my partner, my Mr. Right.

I didn't cry on that day, he did. He said that he was very, very happy. Now, it's my turn to cry, I cried on our first night, the next morning and now. I just couldn't image, how I can be so lucky to be loved like that, I always tell my friends, anyone who asked me why I am marrying him and I always told them that with Irwin, I could feel God's love, It's like God sent him to me. If God watches over you all the time,
he watches over me as long as he can, and I know he loves me very much that sometimes I thought that maybe I must have done something good to deserve someone like him. Just like the song in " The Sound of Music", "Something Good".

Perfect Moment, the day of the announcement

I always have a good night sleep ever since I took a leave from the office until last night. I learned that I won in a contest in a TV in Channel 2. Perfect Moment.
It is like an Oprah show, where they do makeovers. They selected me from five other contestants. Maybe our story was romantic but I never thought it was that romantic. =) Now I am having the wedding jitters because I still do not have the Reception Program and the misalette was not yet approved and it is almost 2 days before the BIG day. Plus, there is a threat of storms and rain and I didn't pass by Sta. Clara since. Oh my, but I wont let that alter my mood, Oh no, whenever I had these jitters I get sick in the stomach get diarrhea,etc. Well since I'm also trying to loose some weight. That is Ok. Gosh. I was so cool and compose, now it is 2 days before and am having the jitters.

I Have You by Karen Carpenters

I Have You

I have always been a dreamer
Followed visions of my own
I was born to belong
To the lines of a song
And make them my home

I believe in happy endings
Though I've only known a few
For as rare as they are
Like a bright falling star
I found one in you

Sometimes All the world can seem so
Friendless
And the road ahead so
Endless
And the dream so far away
Sometimes
When I'll almost
To surrender
Then I stop
And I remember
I have you
To save my day

Often my imagination
Has me reaching out too far
When I fell you were there
With your hand in the air
You knew from the start

Sometimes
After all you've done
To save me
Thru the love you freely
Gave me
Every step along the way
Going
And in truth, it comes from
Knowing
I have you
To save my day

Sometime
Feeling helpless
When I held you
Wishing words would come
To tell you
I have you
To save my day

Why I went to the Movie Theather

"I want to watch in movie theaters because I want to sing our National Anthem!"


Moved by the article written by Isagani Cruz, of the Philippine Daily Inquirer dated today, May 15, 2005 on not singing the National Anthem in moviehouses and Duty Free Shops, well, me I want to sing it! I recently watched "Can This Be Love" in Market Market and we were on the last full show, they normally play it on the last show, we were only 4 or 6 people in the cinema. We were eating Greenwich pizza, chicken and spaghetti when it was played. Irwin do not want to stand up. We were holding this big styro with food and we have to stand up. I stood up, I sang, it was new, now this is by the Hukbong Pangdagat, so Philippine Marines were shown. =) Everybody else was standing honoring the National Anthem. So far, I never encountered anybody not standing while the National Anthem was being played. Well, maybe once because they were foreigners, someone asked them to stand up. They stood up.

Why do I stand up? Because, I do not want to wait for the time when singing the National Anthem would get me killed. I want to sing it freely, like a real Filipino. Back in high school, I was given a chance to sing the anthem, to lead everybody in singing it. It felt good, though I missed some notes.

I liked it when Lani Misalucha sang it in the Pacquiao Boxing in Las Vegas. I feel proud to be a Filipino.

Was it the location? Filipinos in Duty Free Paranaque and moviehouses in the same area do not stand up when the Lupang Hinirang was played? Was it the social status? well, we frequently watch at Eastwood and Shangrila but I never encountered it. Everybody was respectful of the National Anthem. People going to this cinema are rich because they can afford it, well, they are well mannered but I do not know why people in Duty Free Shops in Paranaque do not stand up.

do not want to sing any other National Anthem. I only want Lupang Hinirang, whether in Tagalog, English or Spanish. I know it and I can sing it.

My Gown

I went to Bagong Ilog to get my Wedding Banns permission from the parish priest of my church. I never had a chance to pass by the C5 road, because my office is in Ortigas. I love passing by C5, because that is the only time I can see my gown shown in the display window of LINOI's shop. I looked at it longingly, remembering the time I tried it on. Everybody outside was looking at me, inside trucks, cars, even buses, they looked at me in the traffic.
I felt beautiful, I never thought a single wedding gown could make you more beautiful. I've lost some weight becuase of the pressure my job brings. I do not have to worry losing weight, I am losing it naturally.
I can't wait till my next fitting, by then, maybe I'd bring my veil, trail and a simple flower boquet to complete that bridal look.