Remembering Baguio

It is quite rainy today and yesterday, reminds of the weather in Baguio when we went there last June. It was raining in the afternoon and it stopped at night. So what else can we do but curl and lay in bed during the rainy aftrnoons. But when the night strikes, we put on our jackets and head straight to Kaffee Klatsch. It was a discovery actually, recommended by one of a young professors attending our seminar.
Off we go and try out this secluded coffee place to taste thier famous Baguio Beans.



Hmm. I could still smell it. It brings me back to the cozy place, acoustic music and the coolness of Baguio. Hot Coffee. Coolness.

Chuck and Irwin

Chuck is the newest Tv Series in NBC and Irwin was able to download it. I was not interested when he was watching it so I did not watched it with him. Yesterday, with nothing else to do, I tried to watch it. Geeks and Nerds! Maybe we are a bunch of nerds.
Now I understand why he liked it, Irwin is Chuck, my very own computer geek, nerd, wizard, expert whatever else you call him. For those who doesn't know him he looks like a Chinese businessman or someone working at a bank, but he solves big problem. He has a lot of databases in his head, just like Chuck. He is the master downloader. He is the idol of his colleague, I never met someone who surpasses his expertise in computer.

Speaking of nerds, maybe we are nerds, me included. I remember one time when we were in the hospital, it was early in the morning and we were discussing "The Theory of Evolution". My sister, Dulce who was also in the hospital cannot believe what she was hearing. With no breakfast yet, we were discussing big topics. She said that " hindi ko matake ito, masyadong intellectual!". After saying that we all laughed, and stopped the discussion and shifted to more common topics like breakfast.
"Gutom lang yan."

Now, I married a computer expert and he married a psychophilic. I wonder what would become of our children.

Having a Baby and Losing It

It's been six weeks since I had a D & C, they keep on saying this without telling me what it is. So I checked the internet and found out that D and C refers to dilatation and curettage. "It is a procedure in which the vaginal canal is held open with a speculum and the cervix is dilated with a metal rod. A curette is then passed through the cervical canal into the uterine cavity where endometrial tissue is scraped away and collected for examination."

I was so innocent with what happened to me, I didn't remember that a speculum was inside me, I thought it was just a bad dream. I never imagine it could fit inside, I also could not imagine the OB's hand fitting inside my vagina, hmm of course how can the baby get out?

Now after six weeks of resting ang recovering I am starting over. Trying to forget that I lost my baby. But I was not completely well I guess. Recently, I watched "Paano Kita Iibigin" and I was crying and affected by the movie when I saw a mother taking care of a sick child. Will I ever be a mother again?

Now, I am focused on parenting our Shih Tzu dog, Cassie and I am trying hard to be a good pet owner to her. I realized that if "you give a little love, it all comes back to you". This quote is for everybody including animals, after bonding with Cassie and making her sleep, she is starting to cuddle me and stay beside my side of bed. Cassie likes Irwin more because he plays with Cassie so they sleep together but not with me. I am surprised when Cassie for the longest time finally sleep beside me.

I am confident that I am going to be a good mother.

I lub lub lub my papa and mama

Yesterday we went to my parents house to get the suha my father brought from Davao. He knows I am already pregnant and I know he is excited for my baby. When we arrived, papa is driving my sister to work to Ortigas and we were waiting for him to come home but he was so tagal. It turned out that he went to Hypermart to buy some more suha for us. Yipee! I have a lot of suha. Mama naman, went outside to buy some barbeque because I told her I want some barbeque. When she got home, she got the last two barbeque sticks. Kaya lang alang sauce. Pero it is Ok. I lub lub lub my parents...
Chanda is correct in saying that when you are pregnant immerse yourself with people that you love and who loves you. I love them and they love me back 100%. I hope to be like them as parents, self-sacrificing and generous. Papa is the generous one, Mama is kinda tipid, though they are different we all turned out well.

Stranded

What happens when you are stranded? Stranded because of the rain, especially when you feel like going home. You do not want to risk getting drenched in the rain so you wait for it to stop. For the meantime, you cannot do anything because you are waiting in a shed with a lot of people struggling to keep dry. You have to wait. This is one moment where you have to wait and stay where you are. For people like me who do not like to wait, this is an agony. I would rather do something. Go out in the rain, walk towards the jeepney so I could go home. I do not want to stay in the shed and wait. This happens all the time and everytime I tried to get out of the shed and walk, after getting wet from the rain and hailing a jeep. The rain would stop. It was a big joke and I never learned to take it. Maybe next time.

We are pregnant!

Preggy na ako. I am happy yet distressed. Normal ba ito? Right now, I have a fever and I feel sick. Kumusta kaya ang baby ko? Kawawa naman siya, is he/she feeling what I am feeling? Can it feel the heat, the headaches and cold drifts? Haay, sana gumaling na ako. Ayaw ko nang magkasakit.
10 weeks pregnant and I don't feel big pa. Ilang weeks pa malaki na ako.

Hypnosis Day Four

Day four of our hypnosis class got us to listen to empty coca cola cans and sea shells and see what we can hear. since it is the hearing faculty that we are using, I may have difficluty with that because of my injured ear. So I let it be, the POWER of LET asd Father Bu told us is not working with me. All I can hear is "I am so tired". I do not know where did I get that reception. By the way we also tried to look for hidden things inside the room and I was close to finding it. We also tried to intuitively guess the school of one of our classmates who is from UST by using our thumb and of course not by reasoning. I've intuitively seen the letters E and T and then last is letter U, I cannot make a school out of it and I never thought it could be UST. Whew so much for the activity and getting intuition, I didn't shared it though.