Looking for a Kakampi

I guess wishing for a baby boy can be common for first time mothers. Siyempre, I want to justify my desire to have a baby boy and I was able to find a new mother who shares the same sentiment as me. Salma's baby is a girl just like me and a thousand others. I share her sentiments that yes a woman's life can be difficult. Read on..


Salma Hayek: 'I Was Born to Have This Girl'

By Caris Davis and Kristin Boehm

Originally posted Wednesday March 05, 2008 12:30 PM EST

Salma Hayek: 'I Was Born to Have This Girl' | Salma Hayek
In a new interview, Salma Hayek confesses she suffered from diabetes during her pregnancy and that she was hoping for a son – but now she's loving being a mom to her five-month-old daughter, Valentina Paloma Pinault.
I guess wishing for a baby boy can be common for first time mothers. Siyempre, I want to justify my desire to have a baby boy and I was able to find a new mother who shares the same sentiment as me.

"I feel I was born to have this girl," she tells the April issue of Glamour magazine.

Pregnancy for the 41-year-old, first-time mom was a humbling experience. "I had diabetes while I was pregnant. I became huge. And I said, 'This is what it takes for me to have this baby, and I really want it.' Then you don't know if it's going to be healthy; you are completely out of control," she says. "So the experience really makes you humble."

Hayek's businessman fiancé, François Henri Pinault, 45, has two children from a previous marriage, and the actress confesses, "I wanted a boy."

How come? "Probably because I was afraid," she tells the magazine. "I think women suffer a bit more than boys, and there is always conflict between mothers and daughters."

"Now that she's here, I'm so happy she's a girl," Hayek says of Valentina. "And I can't imagine there ever being conflict between us, because I'm in a state of innocence where I love everything she does."

She concludes: "I just feel so fortunate to be her mother, and it makes me excited about the rest of my life, because I will get to witness her transformation every day."

It's a Girl!

Yesterday I had a Congenital Anomaly Scanning and we are proud to say that we are going to have a baby girl! I honestly wished that it will be a boy for some personal reasons... We only have one name Raymund Irwin or RAIN if it is a boy. We have no name for a girl. Until last Sunday.

And CHIARA will be her name...

We went to the Santa Clara de Montefalco Church in Caniogan, Pasig and Irwin saw this leaflet on the life story of St. Claire. Chiara is her Italian name which means, light, pure and clear. It was a beautiful name. In case our baby will be a girl that will be her name. I am already 6 months pregnant and we do not know the gender yet. The last ultrasound was not very clear but we had a hunch it was a girl, by five months if it is a boy, it should already be visible but it was not. After the ultrasound, I went to my parent's house and guess what I saw? The same leaflet of St. Claire lying on the table. I told my mother that we are going to have a girl and showed her the leaflet, I told her this will be the name, Chiara, and I encircled the name.

What a coincidence.

All along, signs have been telling me that I will have a girl. One co-worker even asked me spontaneously what is my favorite color and I said pink! And pink was not my favorite color, why all of a sudden I mentioned pink. That was my unconscious talking.

So yesterday, I had the scanning and yes it is a girl. I am a little disappointed
(I am being truthful) but today after seeing this video of a little girl named Connie. I can't help but cry and realized my mistake over my disappointment. I saw this video of a little girl with long golden hair from Chelle and saw in her my would be little girl. I will definitely teach her how to sing. Give her everything and anything, make her happy. Whew, it is so hard to be a parent. Guess, I am having an early new parent blues.

Worries over Giving Grade

Since graduation is around the corner, I am faced with the problem of giving grades to graduating students. This was my dilemma for two weeks but now everything is over. Since I've been thinking and was very busy with the fourth year class I even forgot to update my blog.
Yesterday the cum laudes' treated the faculty to a snack of pancit and ham roll. Their parents were even there. If you are a parent of a graduating student with honors won't you feel proud? Maybe that was their feeling yesterday.

I remember when I graduated from high school and I have to look for a university for college. I took the exam at UP, PUP and UST. I did not pass the UPCAT, I passed the PUP entrance exam and also passed the UST exam. I remember taking the exam at UST and the result will be posted a week or two after because that was the last batch of exams it was already the end of March. I was with my mother when we checked the result, luckily I passed the quota course of Psychology and my I will never forget my mother's face, she was almost teary-eyed and I know she was happy and proud of me.

Going back to my dilemma, these graduating students have an average grade in my class, meaning some of their classmates got higher grades than them. My dilemma is that if I give them a low grade, one of the cum laude will not pass the magna standard. One cum laude will not be a cum laude and worst of all, one of the faculty tried to talk to me into giving them a higher grade. I was in conflict. The professor informed me already a month ahead that these three students are running for honors and he is asking for my help to support them.

So last week when the start of the encoding of the grades began, I know he was looking for an opportunity to talk to me and he got his chance. He saw me computing the grades and asked for the grade of the three students. I told them their grades, he said it was too low. He did not leave my side. I told him"Ok, I'll try to adjust my grade" , I tried to adjust my grade told him the grade and that made him happy. After he left, I was really bothered, like I did something wrong, like I did something against my will.

The graduating students were required to ask the professors for their grades and I already informed them of their high grade. Before I left that day, I left a note to the professor telling him that I will have to think about the grades that I told him overnight and informed the honor students of the changes in grade. I asked them to come to school the next day to explain the changes.

I told them that one of the professors approached me to give them a higher grade so that they will know. I gave an additional work to one of the student because if I tried to change her grade, she will no longer be in the honor roll. I informed the two that I will lower their grade and they agreed.

Now I have to face the wrath of the professor. I know I should not have agreed in the first place to change their grades. I feel that I gave them a high grade because the professor asked me but I know in my heart that I can give them that grade if the students asked for my help.

I have these thoughts until today and I want to get over it. I guess I have to move on and start forgetting about it.

Got this tag from Rhea
Friendship Chain

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This is the easy way and the fastest way to :

1. Make your Technorati Authority explode. 2. Increase your Google Page Rank. 3. Get more traffic to your blog. 4. Make new friends.

Rules :1. Start copy from “Begin Copy” until “End Copy” to your blog. 2. Put your own blog name and link. 3. Tag your friends as much as you can.

1. Picturing of Life 2. Juliana’s Site 3. Hazel-My Life, My Hope, My Future.4. Jeanne-The Callalily Space5.My Family is my Life 6. My Charmed Life 7. To the Moon and Back 8. My Happy Place 9. I am Dzoi 10. 100% Kelly 11. Shopaholic Ties The Knot 12. One Hundred Eighty Degrees
13. My Favorite Things
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I'm tagging

Chelle
Vina
Jeanne
Bless
Cane

Something Fishy According to RB

Just to update my blog and not my pimply face showed up as the latest post, I will try to blog about our breakfast at Something Fishy a long, long time ago. My father works in Davao and he comes to Manila once a month, he will be coming again this March 19 for the Holy Week season.
We went out last month to have a get together. Everybody was there and I am happy to be there too. My sister who works in Laguna is there including RB and Ate Luz, my sister-in-law who is in Pangasinan, also starring is Mark, my sister's boyfriend. The same group who went to Palawan last November to celebrate my parents' wedding anniversary. Our family is getting bigger with a new addition in four months!

Edema in Pregnancy and the Effects of Steroid

BEWARE! BEWARE! EXPLICIT PICTURES OF PIMPLES AND EDEMA!
If you've been reading my blog since January when I blogged that I felt so ugly, well, nothing could be uglier than my skin and my feet right now. Since I've been taking steroid for my thyroid autoimmune problem, I've had a lot of side effects. Some effects are having a moon face, having a high blood pressure, this edema can also be an effect and the worst are the pimples. Just take a look at the pimples at the side of my ears. Di ba kadiri! Not just my ears but you can see it all over my face, neck, back and stomach.
Pero what is surprising right now, I do not feel ugly at all. I know I am fat but do not feel that I am fat, I am the least affected. Sometimes those pimples can be so itchy and painful especially on the bra strap area and the area for the panty's garter.

Maybe I am the least affected because I know that these are sacrifices for my baby's sake. It is enough for me to see my baby alive and very healthy. I can't wait to be a mother!

Anxiety Attack Over Possible Birthing Expenses

My sister-in-law gave birth to a healthy boy last March 1, 2008. We share the same OB and she delivered her baby at the Medical City and was able to avail of the package for the ward. She only paid 45,000 for three days confinement. It was cheap considering it is Medical City. Now our OB told me to prepare a lot of money because I have a high-risk pregnancy and I cannot avail of the ward. Her remark made me really so anxious, worried and angry. Imagine, I've been taking care of myself, I've never had a bed rest, I'm eating healthy foods, taking my vitamins, I've been going to my Immunologist etc. In short, she was trying to imply that I maybe a Ceasarian case. Now that really made me angry, how can she tell at this early stage of my pregnancy ( 5 months) that I may have complications at birthing?
I was really pissed off and this made me worried because right now I am thinking of looking for another OB. Just thinking about it can make my blood pressure go up and I do feel a little hurt by her remark. I always think that I am going to have a normal delivery and I am positive that I will have no complications. But with her remark, really I am so worried.