Thursday, April 19, 2007
Day Two Hypnosis
Here's what happened in day tow, we learned how to tell a person's blood pressure through the index finger and thumb. We also used a divining rod, a st/ benedict's cross and tried to go to a person's house and describe their house then you would ask the person for accuracy. I guess hindi pa ako BL (bukas loob) because I am not feeling well, I tried the divining rod and asked some questions, and I got a very acceptable answer.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Hypnosis Day One
It was a Monday afternoon, our class starts at 3:00 p.m. Irwin drived me to Ateneo Social Science Bldg. we arrived at 2:30 pm. I've seen some of my would be classmates all waiting for Father Jaime Bulatao. I've seen him arrived and went to his office. When it was already time, a staff opened the room and we went inside. I was suppose to go to the washroom but when I opened it. There he was, he held my hand, I felt something, some kind of energy, I cannot identify the feeling, something like someone with power was holding me, he asked me " Do I know you?" I told him "no father, my name is Agnes". Then he held my hand for a while and released it, akala ko nga ihahatid ko siya hanggang sa harap eh may mag-aalalay naman sa kanya. He was 84 years old last September. Very old and wise.
Next, we all sat down inside beside each other, no one wants to sit with me, initially we are behind a table, then he asked us to place our chair in front of the tables, so we are facing each other no barriers na table. Meron na akong katabi.
NExt, he demonstrated an hypnosis touch, biglang nag freeze your arm ng classmate namin. parang na paralyzed. Ewan ko I was skeptic pa. Then the classmate tried it on another classmate, ganun din. After that we all tried it, yung katabi ko, ginawa ko sa kanya, gumana pero nawala, nung siya sa akin, ayaw, naghanap kami ng ibang partner paghawak sa akin nung isa, nakuryente siya sa akin meron akong static electricity. hahaha. kala niya siguro kung ano yun.
Next, we all sat down inside beside each other, no one wants to sit with me, initially we are behind a table, then he asked us to place our chair in front of the tables, so we are facing each other no barriers na table. Meron na akong katabi.
NExt, he demonstrated an hypnosis touch, biglang nag freeze your arm ng classmate namin. parang na paralyzed. Ewan ko I was skeptic pa. Then the classmate tried it on another classmate, ganun din. After that we all tried it, yung katabi ko, ginawa ko sa kanya, gumana pero nawala, nung siya sa akin, ayaw, naghanap kami ng ibang partner paghawak sa akin nung isa, nakuryente siya sa akin meron akong static electricity. hahaha. kala niya siguro kung ano yun.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
One Year and Seven Months
My Delusions
We are almost two years married. Did it change anything in me? Have I learned how to cook or do household chores? Hmm. The answer is no. I may not learn any of the domestic work but I do learn something about myself that makes me appreciate Irwin more and the people around me. I learned to know myself, I accept myself as who I am.
After taking a neuropsychiatric examination which is a requirement for employment and after doing some researches on giftedness, I had the realization that maybe I am a gifted adult. Majority of the characteristics of a gifted individual fits me. I have an above average IQ, consider myself creative, I can learn new things and be good at it, I am resourceful, I think different than most people, I tend to seek the company of older adults, I get restless if I am not learning, sensitive, compassionate, likes ambiguity among others.
As a child I remembered creating poems, I remember changing the poem Tree into something else. I was creating poems because I want to join the contest in Uncle Bob's TV show on channel 7. Maybe I envied those kids on TV because they have a lot of nice things which I do not have. In high school, I have several original compositions of novels, short stories, I was making poems too, and I have a notebook full of it. I was eyeing the Youngblood section of Inquirer but I never had a chance to really submit anything.
I was good in Math, but I developed a phobia for it when my high school teacher reprimanded me because we were laughing while praying. I was the only one caught, no; I was the only one who confessed to doing it. I was getting high grades but my last grade was 89 and the rest of my classmates were 90 and above even though I performed better than them. I never hated math after that though. My hate for math started in fourth year high school, I took the exam on Trigonometry, It was a 50 item test and I have one mistake. The highest scorer got a perfect score and she was acknowledged. She was the president of Math Club. I was not a president of any club. I was very happy with my grade it was an achievement. I was waiting for another announcement of the next higher scorer but I was not called. I could never forget that day, that was the time where I hated math.
I remember too when I was in elementary, I do not want to have a high grade, I was keeping my grades average so my classmates would not envy me. I remember one classmates who commented “ Bakit alam mo ang lahat?” instead of being proud, I was embarrassed because she said it like she don’t want me to know anything. She made it look like she was so embarrassed because I know the answer and she did not. Ok, so I better shut up because people get insecure.
I remember to keep on the average side, not too showy people might notice. Maybe that is one reason I never want to get any attention to myself. I never wanted to be the center of attention.
I remember in my fourth year in high school, I got a 99 percentile grade on my NCEE. I ranked 5th in our class, there were 4 who got the 99+ , they were the valedictorian, salutatorian, president of the student council and secretary of our class and me, I was just an ordinary student. I take it as an achievement too, I got higher grades than our class president, and only four from our batch got the 99++ percentile.
My grades were average in college. I worked as a secretary and after that shifted to IT as a programmer. I worked as a technical support, a nice term for technician, I wanted to learn so I asked to be transferred to that department. I learned a lot, I was the only female in the group. I think that also an achievement. After that work I applied as an agent in a call center, I was on top of the class during training and even after when we were deployed. I got a high score on my first day and first week until third week. I quit after that. I am working as a teacher now and based from the last teacher's evalution, I got the highest rank among all teachers. I have no previous experience in teaching but that is a proof that I can do something good even with limited resources and skills. Siguro tsamba lang kasi mabait ang mga students ko, maybe it is the sensitive me who is working or the compassionate me, or the deeper knowledge of human condition helped me to teach those students. Maybe they see my dedication to help them learn.
I think I will never do what my previous teachers did. All I have to do is believe in them and in their capabilities. Maybe after a lot of soul searching on what to do, I could say I am home.
We are almost two years married. Did it change anything in me? Have I learned how to cook or do household chores? Hmm. The answer is no. I may not learn any of the domestic work but I do learn something about myself that makes me appreciate Irwin more and the people around me. I learned to know myself, I accept myself as who I am.
After taking a neuropsychiatric examination which is a requirement for employment and after doing some researches on giftedness, I had the realization that maybe I am a gifted adult. Majority of the characteristics of a gifted individual fits me. I have an above average IQ, consider myself creative, I can learn new things and be good at it, I am resourceful, I think different than most people, I tend to seek the company of older adults, I get restless if I am not learning, sensitive, compassionate, likes ambiguity among others.
As a child I remembered creating poems, I remember changing the poem Tree into something else. I was creating poems because I want to join the contest in Uncle Bob's TV show on channel 7. Maybe I envied those kids on TV because they have a lot of nice things which I do not have. In high school, I have several original compositions of novels, short stories, I was making poems too, and I have a notebook full of it. I was eyeing the Youngblood section of Inquirer but I never had a chance to really submit anything.
I was good in Math, but I developed a phobia for it when my high school teacher reprimanded me because we were laughing while praying. I was the only one caught, no; I was the only one who confessed to doing it. I was getting high grades but my last grade was 89 and the rest of my classmates were 90 and above even though I performed better than them. I never hated math after that though. My hate for math started in fourth year high school, I took the exam on Trigonometry, It was a 50 item test and I have one mistake. The highest scorer got a perfect score and she was acknowledged. She was the president of Math Club. I was not a president of any club. I was very happy with my grade it was an achievement. I was waiting for another announcement of the next higher scorer but I was not called. I could never forget that day, that was the time where I hated math.
I remember too when I was in elementary, I do not want to have a high grade, I was keeping my grades average so my classmates would not envy me. I remember one classmates who commented “ Bakit alam mo ang lahat?” instead of being proud, I was embarrassed because she said it like she don’t want me to know anything. She made it look like she was so embarrassed because I know the answer and she did not. Ok, so I better shut up because people get insecure.
I remember to keep on the average side, not too showy people might notice. Maybe that is one reason I never want to get any attention to myself. I never wanted to be the center of attention.
I remember in my fourth year in high school, I got a 99 percentile grade on my NCEE. I ranked 5th in our class, there were 4 who got the 99+ , they were the valedictorian, salutatorian, president of the student council and secretary of our class and me, I was just an ordinary student. I take it as an achievement too, I got higher grades than our class president, and only four from our batch got the 99++ percentile.
My grades were average in college. I worked as a secretary and after that shifted to IT as a programmer. I worked as a technical support, a nice term for technician, I wanted to learn so I asked to be transferred to that department. I learned a lot, I was the only female in the group. I think that also an achievement. After that work I applied as an agent in a call center, I was on top of the class during training and even after when we were deployed. I got a high score on my first day and first week until third week. I quit after that. I am working as a teacher now and based from the last teacher's evalution, I got the highest rank among all teachers. I have no previous experience in teaching but that is a proof that I can do something good even with limited resources and skills. Siguro tsamba lang kasi mabait ang mga students ko, maybe it is the sensitive me who is working or the compassionate me, or the deeper knowledge of human condition helped me to teach those students. Maybe they see my dedication to help them learn.
I think I will never do what my previous teachers did. All I have to do is believe in them and in their capabilities. Maybe after a lot of soul searching on what to do, I could say I am home.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Kasal, Kasali
We watched the movie last Monday, January 1 at Robinson's Galleria for the 7:45 showing. I was with my ate, mama and Irwin. We were a bit late so we were rushing to get to the parking lot after dropping ate and mama to the entrance so they could buy the tickets. We got a parking near the elevator. As we were about to board the elevator, the passengers going out were Angel Locsin, Jennilyn Mercado and other kapuso stars. We'll they just looked familiar to me. I asked Irwin if he wants to stay out of the elevator and he laughingly said yes. Maybe that made his day seeing Angel Locsin in the flesh.
Going back to the review, we were not able to see the start the movie so the first thing we've seen was the scene where Gina Pareno was preparing the Batotay, or Longanisa and incredulously asking Juday why she is getting married when they do not know if she has a boyfriend and of course Juday's famous answer was "Hindi ako buntis".
Gina Pareno's acting was so convincing it was like she was not acting; she is so funny as the mother of Juday who is a "politicians" or barangay kagawad. She was a typical Filipino mother on a typical scene in a province with a typical marital situation where the parents are separated and left the mother bitter with the separation.
It was a "typical Filipino" portrayal during weddings. Bride informs her family, Groom asks for the bride’s hand in marriage and both parties would talk about the wedding. The Grooms parent Ariel Ureta and Gloria Diaz were the rich parents and Gloria was accused of being “matapobre” to the family of Juday. Ariel Ureta was the rational and understanding one. His line “ pabayaan mo na ang anak mo, kasal niya yan hindi ikaw ang ikakasal” would hit a lot of Bride-to-be or former brides, Filipino or non-Filipino because people really can’t help by share their ideas during weddings.
I know a friend who wants a solemn wedding in a secluded farm with only 50 guests and her parents wants to invite at least 300 guests. More or less just like in the movie, they ended up getting a civil marriage.
Juday’s acting was funny, “typical” again of Juday, she is effective in portraying underdog characters, like in her past tele-serye, where the poor girl gets the rich man and lives happily ever after. Reminds of “I’m sorry my Love” with Onemig Bondoc. Really, I watched it and it never failed to make me laugh and fall off the seat the first time I’ve seen it.
One thing for sure that really caught my attention, she lost a lot of pounds! She can wear mini skirts and show off her legs, her shirts were small in size I guess. It inspires me to lose some weight too. Well, Juday is not the “typical” beauty like Claudine, Bea, Roxanne, and other stars but she has no competition when it comes to comedy series. She can really make me laugh. It is so natural of her to say those quick, long lines.
Guys are attracted to these gals I think because of their sense of humor. Like Ryan A, again he is a “typical” rich, mama’s boy who can’t decide on his own that he keeps on asking his friends for decisions that he should make himself. Even in the proposal for marriage, he kind of let Juday decide if he would go to the States or not by asking Juday to marry him. It shows a little weakness in his character role, and that weakness compensates or compliments Juday’s assertive and aggressive role.
Overall, this movie shows what everyone of us knows already but failed to recognize them. Married life in the Philippines is different because of close family ties and because of this we have to consider everybody in our decision, parents, relatives and friends. Close family ties encourages living with the parents, much to the chagrin of the bride or the groom who wants to live separately but can’t because of financial difficulties and practicality. A groom or a bride would really never realize the difficulty or challenges of married life unless they live in a separate house apart from the parents. Well, I hope Juday would inspire me to be myself just like her in any setting or situation and not the best foot forward show that I seriously am trying to do. I am glad we watched this movie because right after watching it, we planned to move out and build our own house, maybe look for a place where we could rent or buy a house on a loan. I never have to point out to my husband anything, I never said a word, the movie says it all.
Going back to the review, we were not able to see the start the movie so the first thing we've seen was the scene where Gina Pareno was preparing the Batotay, or Longanisa and incredulously asking Juday why she is getting married when they do not know if she has a boyfriend and of course Juday's famous answer was "Hindi ako buntis".
Gina Pareno's acting was so convincing it was like she was not acting; she is so funny as the mother of Juday who is a "politicians" or barangay kagawad. She was a typical Filipino mother on a typical scene in a province with a typical marital situation where the parents are separated and left the mother bitter with the separation.
It was a "typical Filipino" portrayal during weddings. Bride informs her family, Groom asks for the bride’s hand in marriage and both parties would talk about the wedding. The Grooms parent Ariel Ureta and Gloria Diaz were the rich parents and Gloria was accused of being “matapobre” to the family of Juday. Ariel Ureta was the rational and understanding one. His line “ pabayaan mo na ang anak mo, kasal niya yan hindi ikaw ang ikakasal” would hit a lot of Bride-to-be or former brides, Filipino or non-Filipino because people really can’t help by share their ideas during weddings.
I know a friend who wants a solemn wedding in a secluded farm with only 50 guests and her parents wants to invite at least 300 guests. More or less just like in the movie, they ended up getting a civil marriage.
Juday’s acting was funny, “typical” again of Juday, she is effective in portraying underdog characters, like in her past tele-serye, where the poor girl gets the rich man and lives happily ever after. Reminds of “I’m sorry my Love” with Onemig Bondoc. Really, I watched it and it never failed to make me laugh and fall off the seat the first time I’ve seen it.
One thing for sure that really caught my attention, she lost a lot of pounds! She can wear mini skirts and show off her legs, her shirts were small in size I guess. It inspires me to lose some weight too. Well, Juday is not the “typical” beauty like Claudine, Bea, Roxanne, and other stars but she has no competition when it comes to comedy series. She can really make me laugh. It is so natural of her to say those quick, long lines.
Guys are attracted to these gals I think because of their sense of humor. Like Ryan A, again he is a “typical” rich, mama’s boy who can’t decide on his own that he keeps on asking his friends for decisions that he should make himself. Even in the proposal for marriage, he kind of let Juday decide if he would go to the States or not by asking Juday to marry him. It shows a little weakness in his character role, and that weakness compensates or compliments Juday’s assertive and aggressive role.
Overall, this movie shows what everyone of us knows already but failed to recognize them. Married life in the Philippines is different because of close family ties and because of this we have to consider everybody in our decision, parents, relatives and friends. Close family ties encourages living with the parents, much to the chagrin of the bride or the groom who wants to live separately but can’t because of financial difficulties and practicality. A groom or a bride would really never realize the difficulty or challenges of married life unless they live in a separate house apart from the parents. Well, I hope Juday would inspire me to be myself just like her in any setting or situation and not the best foot forward show that I seriously am trying to do. I am glad we watched this movie because right after watching it, we planned to move out and build our own house, maybe look for a place where we could rent or buy a house on a loan. I never have to point out to my husband anything, I never said a word, the movie says it all.
Friday, July 7, 2006
Something NonWedding
After a year and a month of being married, living with the in laws and having two different jobs in a year, I could say that I am loving life. I love life because finally I was doing something that I love; Teaching. I was lucky to be accepted as a part time professor in a University in Pasig. If I had known that this profession would finally end my worries and change me a lot. I should have tried it a long, long, long time ago.
I have fear of speaking in front of an audience. I fear getting embarrassed. I a person with a lot of fears and by being a Professor. I was facing that fear and conquering them.
I teach Psychology, Guidance and Counseling and Sociology. It is the first time I used the reference book and thought it is very difficult to study, I want to study and teach them, I want to impart my knowledge, prove my skills, help the students in any way I can.
Kahit na gaano kahirap ang pagtuturo gagawin ko para sa mga bata.
I want to help them land a good job, I want to improve thier confidence. I want their parents to be proud of them, I want them to graduate.
I have fear of speaking in front of an audience. I fear getting embarrassed. I a person with a lot of fears and by being a Professor. I was facing that fear and conquering them.
I teach Psychology, Guidance and Counseling and Sociology. It is the first time I used the reference book and thought it is very difficult to study, I want to study and teach them, I want to impart my knowledge, prove my skills, help the students in any way I can.
Kahit na gaano kahirap ang pagtuturo gagawin ko para sa mga bata.
I want to help them land a good job, I want to improve thier confidence. I want their parents to be proud of them, I want them to graduate.
Monday, November 21, 2005
Im a Bum
Life is so much better now, I can spend a lot of time with my husband, do the things I wanted to do, I am really spoiling the inner child in me. My friend, said that I am a very lucky person, I don't want to believe her, but after some thoughts I really am lucky.
Things that made me happy:
1. Morning hugs
2. Sunday morning taho
3. Sunday morning mass
4. Singing Lessons at CFPM, with kids who is better than me
5. Bathtub soaks
6. Eating bbq
7. Hot choco at Chowking, so creamy
8. Selecta Moo choco drink
9. Videoke to the max, at our house in Ugong
10. Last but not the least, looking forward to my last pay at SVI
Things that made me happy:
1. Morning hugs
2. Sunday morning taho
3. Sunday morning mass
4. Singing Lessons at CFPM, with kids who is better than me
5. Bathtub soaks
6. Eating bbq
7. Hot choco at Chowking, so creamy
8. Selecta Moo choco drink
9. Videoke to the max, at our house in Ugong
10. Last but not the least, looking forward to my last pay at SVI
Friday, October 21, 2005
Blessed Ako
Ang aga aga nag sesenti ako. It's just that I feel so blessed, why did I ever never thought about it before? Here I am happily married to a wonderful guy, the best guy for me. Just his love is enough to make me realize that I am a very lucky girl to have him. Mega reklamo pa ako sa trabaho, and he was ther for me, always never intruding, always there to listen and to support me.
Once in a while, you have to pause and think of the things that are important to you. I retired from my work, and I have a lot of time to spend, spend it with him, his family, my family. I feel so happy. Kahit wala akong trabaho. Hindi ko naisip na kailangan ko ng pera, yeah right, I am earning a lot compared to my officemates and my position was full of responsibilities and I choose to say goodbye to it.
Ngayon lang, na na relax na ako at narealize ko kung gaano ang pasensiya na ibinigay sa akin ng asawa ko, ngayon na wala akong ginagawa, nalaman ko na mahal na mahal niya talaga ako. Ngayon, kahit noon pa, hindi niya nakakalimutan na sabihin sa akin na " I love you" bago siya umalis habang ako'y kunyaring natutulog at inaabangan ang kanyang goodbye kiss.
Nawalan ako ng panahon sa kanya, sarili ko lang ang naisip ko, pero nandyan pa rin siya, tulad noon, tulad dati, palagi siyang nandyan.
Umaga na, naka alis na siya, ni hindi ko man lang siya nangitian. naririnig ko ang mga huni ng ibon, at ang maliwanag na langit, ang sikat ng araw sa may bintana namin. Hindi mo ba sasabihin na suwerte ako? Wala akong trabaho, pero may isang tao na nagmamahal sa akin, oo hindi nga ako kagandahan, oo hindi rin ako sexy at hindi artistahin, pero may nagmamahal sa akin.
At dahil dyan nararamdaman ko na mahal din ako ng Diyos, na noon pa man, pinadala niya sa akin si Irwin para kung hindi man ako mabantayan ng Amang nasa Langit meron naman siyang katuwang sa pagsubaybay sa akin. Naniniwala ako na mahal talaga ako ng Diyos dahil kahit may masama akong ugali, hindi pa rin tumitigil sa pagunawa ang mga mhal ko sa buhay.
Subukan nyong huminto, tumingin sa bintana, ngumite, pakingan ang huni ng ibon, gumising ng umaga, magdasal at magpasalamat, at mahalin nang lubos ang mga tao sa paligid mo. Yun lang naman eh Pag Ibig, ay nakatira nga pala ako sa Pag Ibig, Pag Ibig Homes. =)
Once in a while, you have to pause and think of the things that are important to you. I retired from my work, and I have a lot of time to spend, spend it with him, his family, my family. I feel so happy. Kahit wala akong trabaho. Hindi ko naisip na kailangan ko ng pera, yeah right, I am earning a lot compared to my officemates and my position was full of responsibilities and I choose to say goodbye to it.
Ngayon lang, na na relax na ako at narealize ko kung gaano ang pasensiya na ibinigay sa akin ng asawa ko, ngayon na wala akong ginagawa, nalaman ko na mahal na mahal niya talaga ako. Ngayon, kahit noon pa, hindi niya nakakalimutan na sabihin sa akin na " I love you" bago siya umalis habang ako'y kunyaring natutulog at inaabangan ang kanyang goodbye kiss.
Nawalan ako ng panahon sa kanya, sarili ko lang ang naisip ko, pero nandyan pa rin siya, tulad noon, tulad dati, palagi siyang nandyan.
Umaga na, naka alis na siya, ni hindi ko man lang siya nangitian. naririnig ko ang mga huni ng ibon, at ang maliwanag na langit, ang sikat ng araw sa may bintana namin. Hindi mo ba sasabihin na suwerte ako? Wala akong trabaho, pero may isang tao na nagmamahal sa akin, oo hindi nga ako kagandahan, oo hindi rin ako sexy at hindi artistahin, pero may nagmamahal sa akin.
At dahil dyan nararamdaman ko na mahal din ako ng Diyos, na noon pa man, pinadala niya sa akin si Irwin para kung hindi man ako mabantayan ng Amang nasa Langit meron naman siyang katuwang sa pagsubaybay sa akin. Naniniwala ako na mahal talaga ako ng Diyos dahil kahit may masama akong ugali, hindi pa rin tumitigil sa pagunawa ang mga mhal ko sa buhay.
Subukan nyong huminto, tumingin sa bintana, ngumite, pakingan ang huni ng ibon, gumising ng umaga, magdasal at magpasalamat, at mahalin nang lubos ang mga tao sa paligid mo. Yun lang naman eh Pag Ibig, ay nakatira nga pala ako sa Pag Ibig, Pag Ibig Homes. =)
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